We had a party at Mum and Dad's on Sat night. Solstice, Claire's 30th, Aily's
26th, and Mother's day.....
It was a great night, with Claire, Eimear
Aily and Brian singing, Brian on the guitar too.
Beautiful. Dad, did an amazing rendition
about waiting for a Pint of Guiness to be ready
and of the respect needed for the same pint!
Brilliant!!!
Johnney recited some of his own poetry and Mum
had her party pieces too.
When I mentioned I can eat blackberries and
blueberries, Mum swiftly produced these
blackberries from the freezer, picked
locally I imagine with Jamie. Thanks Mum..
I was so delighted with myself, as I didn'tsuccomb to temptation and have any of
Mum's famous Coffee Cake......Thanks to Eimear
as she suggested we jog around the house to
work off our fantasy cake!
This was my lunch earlier, chicken stir-fried
in Teryaki, served with spinach, rocket cherry
tomatoes and avocado........
I can still taste the salad Tia made for last night.
Mixed lettuce, Spinach, olives, avocado, cherry toms
red onion, with a dressing of fresh lemon juice, garlic,
Balsamic vinegar, wholegrain mustard, honey, black
pepper, soy sauce and teryaki sauce. It tasted divine!
Today, chicken stir fry with a ginger and
pepper sauce. I do eat a lot of chicken, as the GI
programme recommends frequent protein
but cheese is very limited and I don't like red meat.
I feel so proud of myself, as I have stuck with it
for nearly a week, having one carbohydrate a day
is tough for me, the cornflake queen! I made brown
scones and two fruitcakes, and muffins with the boys
on Friday. I admit to having the heel of the fruitcake
with butter, and two little granola bars over the week
but that is it. No salt, and at least two litres of water a day.
I'm finding it easier now, and with going to the Gym, I
have much more energy to walk and do things I would
have really avoided before. The gym is great, I've had
friend there for company each time I've gone the last
week, so we laugh and chat and time flies.......
I need to find whatever it is that keeps me on track
and identify it, and the same way, to recognise why
I go off course. The word that comes to mind is
sabbotage, and I need to stop that negative part of
me that gets in the way. Also for me knowing that in
the past I would try lose weight and the very foods I
chose to eat were my trigger foods and wound cause
my blood sugar to rise and drop and I would then look
for food again to satisfy this false hunger. Now my
blood sugar is stable and I don't have those crazy
mood swings. I can get light headed and I need to eat
every 3 hours to keep it even. It seems to work for me.
So watch this space.....
The pictures are lovely and you are so honest it's refreshing!!! Am goin to start swimming here in navan....there's only so many mornings you can wake up crying before you stop and do something about it, and not do what it is I have been doing for 11 years, but actually do something. Its so scary to change, but even scarier to allow this path to continue. So many people are lost, including myself and it takes people like you to share your experience and be so honest, to let people like me know that we are not alone.
ReplyDeleteThat made me cry. My friend Hazel is starting up a Women's Circle which really interests me. A group of 12 women meet twice a month for 6 months, to tackle something you need to change in your life. This appeals to me hugely. I see I always have a quick fix solution mentality but I see now that it doesn't work long term.
ReplyDeleteI expect to have the weight gone in a matter of weeks and conveniently forget that it went on over years. And I need to see that it involves both excercise and less calories. Simple
I know too that this has to be a lifestyle change, and to enjoy this feeling of loving food and of taking control........
Its also a matter of dealing with the demons, the things that cause this destructiveness, the things that have taken over our minds and hurt our fragile hearts. Its the things that people have said over the years that are stored in a filofax and when we begin to feel good, we take out a file and remind ourselves that we are not worth it. Its the things that have happened that we didn't like at the time, but use them now to prevent happiness. And the worst thing is, is that we can't help it. But we need to because we can't continue like this!! Bring on the womens circle!
ReplyDeleteWell done Annah!
ReplyDeleteIsn't it an amazing feeling to see another day go by and you managed to do it again? And you're right, being organised is the key. To have order in your environment makes it so much easier.
You are an inspiration!
By the way I saw on the previous comments box that you hadn't realised you had recieved any. One thing you can do is when you are going to write a post click on 'Settings' at the top of the page, and then click on 'Comments'. Scroll down to the bottom of that page and where it says 'Comment Notification Email' type in your email address and then you will get the comments people leave into your email!
Thanks Ciara, I have that notification with the other blog, and I think I was just surprised to get replies, as I set it up on a whim...... It is really helping me to stay focused. Can you change the profile picture on a second blog, or does it stay the same if you have just one email adress?
ReplyDeleteUnfortunately it stays the same unless it's with a different email address, therefore a different account. You could always delete your profile photo and just post individual ones on each blog?
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